I am proud to be one of the hosts for the book tour of Deborah Stone’s New book, Me and My Shadow. Thanks to Love Book Tours and Deborah Stone for gifting me a copy of this in exchange for an honest review.
When the line between truth and lies blurs…
Imagine being flooded with shame, unworthiness, and paranoia. Each day you wake up to a life that feels just beyond the reach of your control. No matter how many attempts you make to move forward, you are met repeatedly with betrayal and rejection from your family – the very people who are supposed to love you the most. This is the reality for Rachel. Since childhood, all she has ever desired is to be loved, to be seen, to be accepted, yet she faces one disappointment after another.
So, what happens when someone is pushed too far and they begin to lose their grip on reality? How would you cope if you felt that no one loved you? And how far would you go to be happy? Accompany Rachel as she tries to shake off the shadows of her past and attempts to repair decades worth of pain.
This was a really intriguing read which kept you guessing throughout. The bulk of the story compromises of Rachel talking to a therapist about her life which has been anything but easy. As you find out more shocking events which have happened to her you feel an array of feelings from anger, sympathy, pity and general sadness. There are some happy memories which she relives but the majority aren’t and we see how these shape who she has become.
This is a story about how the birth of her sister sets her on a course of self destruction and lies. When her sister is brought home from hospital, Rachel becomes almost invisible to her parents as the sister becomes number 1 for attention and this jealousy twists and turns into something ugly.
It is a tale of love, loss, betrayal and family. It shows us Rachel’s life and how events create a downward spiral for her and those around her.
This was written in the first person which made it easier to relate to the character, almost as if you were the therapist at times. Her retelling of events is raw and at times brutal, but what she tells the therapist isn’t always the truth.
Me and My shadow is an emotional, raw, stripped back look at mental health and the damage which can be done if left untreated in some people. As the reader at times you feel yourself subconsciously putting up a barrier between you and the main character to distance yourself from the terrifying events you witness. However at other times you empathise and simply want to hold her and tell her everything will be OK. Then of course there are times you just want to grab her by the shoulders and make her see sense.
This is rollercoaster ride of emotions which leaves you stunned and a bit emotionally drained at the end. However the writing is superb and the twists are often unexpected and beautifully executed. I felt the pace of the book was just right as there weren’t any times when I felt bored or uninterested. It hooked me from the start and Rachel dragged me along on the train wreck retelling of her life.
However if you are someone who is triggered easily or are easily disturbed I would not recommend this book as it touches on many subjects including abuse, rape and suicide.
⭐⭐⭐⭐ a well written story with a lot of tension, emotion with twists and turns when you least expect it.
Much love 💘
About the author
Deborah Stone read English Literature at Durham University and lives in North London with her husband, two sons and gorgeous golden retriever, George.
Her new novel, Me and My Shadow, is a thrilling psychological suspense novel.
Her first novel, What’s Left Unsaid, won The Chill With A Book Runner Up Prize for Best Book of 2018 and has been highly acclaimed.
Her new book, The Essential Family Guide to Caring for Older People, is an important manual for any family looking after older relatives.
Deborah Stone is a leading expert in the field of elder care. Through her website, www.maturethinking.co.uk she provides information and advice for families caring for older people, as well as advising companies on the effective development of products and services for older people. Deborah regularly appears on BBC, ITV, Sky and Channel 5 as a care expert, as well as contributing to lifestyle magazines and national newspapers with advice for those making decisions about care for relatives.
Find all Deborah’s books here: https://deborahstonebooks.com/